What is happening to my body?!

Wednesday, April 24, 2019

It's one of the few constants in this world.

I am 39.
My body is 39.
I gave birth last year, and I felt ALL the difference.

It must be the age.
It is the age.

The back pain.  Sciatica.
The numbing of the hands and fingers.
Being tired from little activity.
Just wanting to shut out from the world.

My body as I've mentioned before is NOT the same.
I have felt it from being pregnant.
I was more tired.
Maybe because I had two older kids to look out for.
Plus we had helper issues.
I was tired, but it was doable.

After giving birth, there was no rest.
Even if Shobe is a calm, chill and a good baby (thanks to the Babyplus System!)
I still had to breastfeed.
I still had to care for the two older kids.
I still had a household to manage.
I still had to pick up Connor from school.
I still had to work.
I still had needed to be a wife and a mother.

What I didn't expect was - getting sick.
Even if I was sick - I still had to function.
There is no SICK LEAVE when it comes to motherhood.

Ever since giving birth, I have been sick at least 7 to 8 times when you think about it, almost every month, I was sick.

Right now.  I am sick.  AGAIN.

I welcomed the Holy Week break with open arms thinking that I would be resting the whole time. And I really did!  It was a first time for me to be sleeping in,  doing nothing but just resting and relaxing - staying indoors and chilling out.  Then on Easter Sunday - well, when I woke up - I knew something was wrong.  I had a hard time swallowing.  When I drank water - my throat was really painful, I could feel the some lymph nodes on my neck.  I had a headache, my joints were aching too and my body felt so heavy that I moved oh so slowly.

All I wanted to do was close my eyes and just lie in bed.

And that was what I did the whole day.

Kailee even commented that I looked really tired because I was not moving on the bed.  I checked my temperature and had a fever of 38.5.  I drank Biogesic + Immunpro and slept.  When I woke up, I felt a little better - but once I tried to get off the bed - I knew I wasn't any better.

So I went back to bed.

I honestly don't know if the virus are stronger or if I have become weaker.  Maybe both?
Was it because I rested too much?
Is there such a thing as resting too much?
What do you think?

I have taken double dosage of Vitamin C and Calcium since getting pregnant.
I've also started taking B Complex because of tingling feelings I have on my fingers and hands.

I know it's the age.
It's like a never ending adventure (of being sick).
It sucks.
It really sucks.
I really dislike it.

But what am I to do?

I feel tired most of the time.
Some say to exercise.
But I already feel tired and I still need to breastfeed/pump.
The thought of it is already overwhelming.

I miss being able to function properly.
As much as I want to go about my normal day, I simply can't.

I can't shut everything out, right?
But it's taking a toll on things I need to do on a daily basis.

My SIL is also in the same boat.
She told me, it's really the age.
As much as we need to take care of our bodies first, we're just unable to do so.

Is there a vitamin I can take, that is similar to Super Mario's Star?

I'm just tired of getting sick.
It's frustrating.

But I'm okay.
Enjoying the baby.


Get well to me!!

Starbucks' Reusable Cups!

A few years ago, I bought Starbucks' reusable cups. 

Four (4) reusable hot cups.

The reason?

Well, I realized that when I see these cups - they encourage me to drink more!  At that time I was training myself to drink a LOT of water.  So I got a lot so that I can have it anywhere.

Fast forward to a recent Tokyo trip, where I saw in a small convenience store a reusable Starbucks cold cup!  It was really cute, and I knew I wanted one - but it wasn't for sale.  It was just a sample of sort.  

To my delight - that particular cup that I like - is AVAILABLE NOW in all Starbucks outlets!!  YES!!

These cups are P100.00 each!
For the cold cup - if you want a straw with it, you will just need to add P30!

So hurry and grab yours now!

Let's help planet earth.
We owe it to Mother Nature to be involved in saving the environment.

But it's NOT insanity or is it?

Monday, April 08, 2019

I have noticed that my children have making the same not so very nice things over and over again.  I remember a seeing in an episode of The Haunting of Hill House someone said 'We do exactly the same thing, expecting a different result - it's insane!'  - not verbatim but something to that effect.

I am quite tired reprimanding my kids on things they're not supposed to do.  Like not telling the truth on some matters or doing something not very nice.  They know that they will get punished - but they still do it, not once or twice but over and over again!  It's really frustrating to be honest.  I'm tired of punishing them, but I need to do it.  They've somehow become upset with me - but what am I to do right?  They know there are consequences.

An example is not taking the Lego out of the house - any part or piece of a Lego.  But repeatedly they do it.  So when it comes to looking for that particular piece - they just shrug their shoulders as if nothing happened.  So we put a consequence on it - they will get punished by pah pah.  We explained to them that if they do it, no questions, no negotiations, no begging - they will immediately get punished.

Just after a day of explaining - they did it.  There was this Lego mini fig that I specifically told them NOT to bring out of the house - but they did.  And they left it in the car.  So I kept it.  I asked them where that mini figure was and they acted as if they didn't know anything about it.  They didn't care!  I was so upset that I yelled and punished them.  After a few pah-pah, Connor was screaming mad.  He said to me 'I don't like you na!'  In all honesty - it broke my heart.  But I told him - why are you angry at me?  I am just giving you, your punishment.  Remember what we discussed if you take a Lego out of the house.  He then started crying.  He wasn't sorry - he was just crying!  I had to explain to him again that he broke the rule therefore he needs to get punished.  So he said he won't do it again.

But this was repeated - 2 more times that same week.


Why don't these kids get it?  Why do they drive us crazy!

It's effing frustrating.  Really really frustrating.

Is this really the cycle we will go through?
Were we like this when we were kids?